In 6th grade the girls at school would say "When the back of your necklace moves to the front someone is thinking of you."  For so long I would constantly check my necklace to see if someone was thinking of me. I had many problems with my self-image growing up and I wanted to be thought of. And every time I touched the front my necklace and felt the hook my heart would start to beat a little faster. My imagination would start to run wild and of course the thought "wait could he like me back?!" would be first cross my mind. It was inevitable that my preteen mind would think that the person I was thinking of was thinking of me too. Recently feelings for a good friend of mine started to grow, I hadn't ever seen him that way and one day I... just did. I never wanted to like him and I didn't ever think I would. Well the time came and it was reviled that he just saw me as a sister (you know the normal) and my heart sank. I wasn't quite sure how to handle the emotions that came with the unexpected news. I held back tears and just grabbed my heart that had fallen to the floor, wiped of the dust and placed it where it belonged (figuratively speaking). Then I went on with my day. Later on I reached for my necklace out of habit and I felt that darn hook. All I could think was "who the heck is thinking of me, it sure isn't who I want it to be" and I fixed my necklace. A while passed and my sister and I got into the car to drive home, I grabbed my Ipod and played "All Around" by The Glorious Unseen.

When my world is caving in / when my hopes are wearing thin / when I’m choking in my sin - Lord, you meet me here. When all around is crashing down, I find myself alive in you. Holy one, renew. When all around is crashing down, I find my spirit crying out. Holy one, consume. When I listen to the fear / when I feel my end is near / when all hope has disappeared - Lord, you meet me here. Will you pour out again? God of mercy, here I am reaching out to you - reaching out for a breakthrough. Father, hear my cry of desperation once again. I look into your eyes - and know a love that has no end.


  I was completely overwhelmed by the thought of God's love for me. When I got home I reached for my necklace again and once more I felt the hook from the back of the necklace hanging with my little silver owl. Suddenly it was clear to me who had been thinking of me the whole time.
Isaiah 49:15-16 says    "Can a mother forget her nursing child? Can she feel no love for the child she had borne? But even if that were possible, I would not forget you! See I have written your name on the palms of my hands." 
When you stop to realized that the God of the universe loves, remembers and thinks of you there is nothing left to do but be in awe of him.

With love,

Noelia